8 Dec 09, around 1pm
I had an epiphany the other day. Taking half a day off work to go see my career counselor, I took a walk down Orchard Road, along a pathway I’ve never taken before, just cos I was feeling particularly adventurous that day.
The grass seems greener, the trees alot shadier, and there were definitely less people taking that path. Nice. All my years of being a Singaporean, I’ve never taken that side of the road before and it was my first time. Truly.
There I was, just lalala-ing, happy to take a slow stroll along busy Orchard Road in this festive season, just slowing down my thoughts, and being thankful for everything in general. I could see I was approaching a crossing ahead, where cars don’t seem to stop, and a lady just waiting out at the junction, and she’s been there for a while.
Oh no. It’s gonna take me a while to cross that road too and it doesn’t look like an easy one with all these cars coming at that kinda speed. But I thought to myself, but hey, I’m just gonna keep walking. And I did.
In my limited vision, this is all I can see:
But hey I’ll just keep walking right? And then it became clearer to me:
The very moment I saw the traffic light crossing, I had an epiphany. Even though it seems like a really small thing, just a tiny episode of a mundane every day, yet I had an epiphany in the midst of all that. I was thinking how perhaps it was stupid to take that road that I’m not even familiar with, that perhaps I should have taken a path I’m familiar with, that would guarantee me getting to my destination But I decided to try something new, and maybe something new wasn’t that great after all. But even when I saw that woman waiting at the road, I felt God telling me to just keep walking, just keep walking…and I could see why only at I had visibility to see why.
It was an epiphany because I AM at a place where I’m just in the pits of confusion, choices and uncertainty and I know He knows it. And I know He’s just telling me to keep walking and keep walking forward. Despite all that I feel, just keep the faith and keep walking forward and that I will come to a point where things are much clearer, and I will be able to walk on with eyes wide open.
Now I just need to keep the faith that I will be able to recognise that point when I reach it.