Have you reached a juncture in your life where you wonder to God ‘so what’s next’? Asking Him what is His grand plan for you? Asking Him what is His direction and calling for you in life? I did and even as I braved living meagrely and a pay cut to start this venture with my sister, there are times whereby I wondered whether I heard Him right to what I feel I’m called to do. Does that sound familiar or what cos I know I’m not the only one in this.
There are days when I feel like only that one step ahead of me is illuminated. One sister told me what if even that one step isn’t illuminated? Yes, I agree too, that that happens. Sometimes that venture into darkness (or uncertainty in life) takes that step of faith.
And here I am, wondering where He will take me next, wondering when our ‘lucky break’ might come. I can see how God has worked in both our lives and I remember a period of joy where I can actually see Him moving in my sister’s life especially, her being non-Christian and all. Through work, He brought us closer than ever before. 23 years of life together and in a matter of half a year, He made so many changes. And in a matter of 2 years, He brought us closer when we used to fight over EVERYTHING. Amazing is His love and grace, poured out upon us.
Yesterday morning, I prayed this. I prayed that God will send only reliable, trustworthy customers to our site. After all, we just started out. Any orders/purchase brings delight as it brings confirmation in our hearts that our works are appreciated, and we want to use our works as a way to share our joy. One non-paying customer alone already upsetted me and when this new order came in with no response to emails, I decided to send her a text in the morning asking her if she got my email and informing her our payment procedure. In Singapore, that feels like the most non-intrusive way of communicating anyways. Text message went out 11am. No reply at all. Naturally, I was wondering: is this another non-payer? (Sigh attached).
Out I went, into town with my sister. We had to work on a feature for MAAD which is starting out a pilot issue of Maadzine. I proposed to cover interviews of people on the street to find out how receptive they are to local designers and handmade stuff since MAAD is still an upstart. We decided to pick 4 people to cover the feature.
2nd girl whom I approached noted that I looked familiar. Well with the Channel U coverage that we got on tv, I wasn’t surprised somebody in Singapore would see that. I took down her name and other details. Her name matched the possible non-paying buyer. And inside me, I was like ‘Hmmmmmm….????’ since it wasn’t particularly a usual Singaporean name. When I got to the end of the interview and got her mobile number just in case I left out any important details, and her number MATCHED exactly the number I text in the morning, I’m sure you can understand how shocked/joyous?/thrilled? I was. The only thing I could exclaim to her was ‘did you buy something from